always remember to be happy...
July 28, 2009
1:11 AM
why can you just leave me be? isn't it enough that i have to live with this painful reminder everyday? why can't things actually be normal for a while? maybe it is my fault, but i'm in no position whatsoever to do anything about it. trying to live life pretending everything's alright isn't easy you know? and rubbing it all in is only making things worse for me. just go away. please just go away and never come back.

i miss my seven girls dearly. things have changed. i wish we were still in cedar. the fun times we shared were really memorable, no matter how insignificant they seemed. don't get me wrong, life now isn't really bad. but all the same, i wish i didn't have to grow up this fast. well, i wish i didn't have to grow up at all. but life goes on, and we're forced to look ahead.

what i wouldn't give to be a little kid again, enjoying the simple things in life and not having to constantly worry about god knows what.

days like these are the worst. everything ends on such a low. i feel so lost, like trying to frantically search for the light switch in the dark, when all you feel are the four solid walls closing in on you.

i should stop here before my words get more incoherent than they already are.

i wish i could find the answers.


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